called

While writing this blog I question my qualifications at times. I have so many thoughts that I want to share, but I am fearful of saying something wrong or being misunderstood. My whole life I have struggled to do things that I don’t consider myself to be perfect at the first try.

For years this influenced me to just stay quiet. I felt God nudging me that He wanted me to use my story for His glory, but I constantly cycled through excuses.

This year I felt convicted that I need to start somewhere.

I am only a 24 year old girl.

I may make mistakes.

I may learn lessons that change the way I view certain things.

But the Lord has given me the experiences He has for a reason.

I view the things I have walked through as battles that He has won. I don’t want to stay quiet about the power of the Lord. If He has given me these parts of my testimony I want to scream it from the mountaintop that He brought me out of every one of those.

For so long I have questioned the Lord’s calling on me with some of the same arguments as Moses. I have questioned who would listen. I have questioned my own words.

In Exodus 4:11-12 God speaks back to Moses. “Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.”

When God calls us to speak, we speak.

This is by no means an excuse to be reckless with what we say - every one of my posts I consult a friend who I trust as deeply wise in her relationship with the Lord. We should seek discernment and wisdom and call out to the Lord to give us the words to say.

But if we are allowing the Lord to use our voices then we should not be quiet.

Truth does not need to shrink because lies will not like hearing it.

It deserves to be boldly declared.

As long as the Lord has given me words to say, I will say them.

If He gave me a voice and a calling I will not shrink to follow Him.

None of this is for my glory. If it was about my own approval, there are things I would never say because truth is not always taken well. I recognize in my own life I need to read these words back to myself and preach that truth over myself as well.

But God deserves glory.

What He has done in my life is no small thing and I will not allow fear of man to stop me from shouting His power.

The one thing I say I can continue to do is declare that He is good.

He is good.

He is so, so good.